Sunday, April 19, 2009

Omar's bucket list(in the process)

1. lead as many ppl to Christ as i can. __

2. go to disneyworld. X

3.Help meet medical needs in Haiti. __

4. Name my first born son, Joffery. __

Go to a northern state, and western. __

Go to Australia. __

Go to London. __

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Omar's testimony

I want to to tell you guys a story, the ONLY story in fact. it all started with God He created the earth and the Heavens, and created adam and eve(genesis 1 and 2), several generations later i was born and this is the part of the story that i know best.... The reason I didn't just start with me is because it didn't start with me nor end with me, its not about us, its all about our Father in Heaven.



Before i surrendered my life to Christ, i was a shy, insecure, depressed kid searching for purpose who was never accepted and made fun of...alot, i remember thinking why am I here, and as a youngen i really didn't have any friends, i guess i would have labeled myself as a gamer, no offense to any gamers out there, but I really and truly oddly enough put my trust in video games and i vented through video games. I did not have anyone to talk to, not my family and I didn't know anyone i could call to confide in. i longed for that love that every single human on earth does.



I wasn't really close to my family back in the day, my father physically abused me when i was younger, he even to this day doesn't show affection to me,

I wasn't close to my mom then but i am now, and my brothers were jerks lol, i am the middle child so my little brother was/is pampered and my big brother always got to be first at everything. My parents were non-practicing "Catholics", we never went to church and only prayed to Mary when something horrible happened. I never heard the whole Gospel until i went to the youth group and the only morals my dad ever taught me were if u get a tattoo or get into a gang, i am kicking you out of my house, and he was serious. actually still to this day he says it. Ii got my morals like every other kid that doesn't know Christ or read the bible, i got through the media, before i read the word, i believed in evolution, i believed that my purpose was to keep the earth clean, all that stuff, i was totally misled. From watching tv and all the promiscuity i didn't know that pre-martial sex was wrong, i had no idea that u had to get married before you made love, i thought oh, you gotta have a test run before you buy it. i thought that if you were going out and didn't cheat that it was morally right.



I really disliked middle school, i am not kidding when i say i had no one...i remember I would go downtown every single Friday, i went all by myself, i couldn't really ask anyone to come with me i was too shy and too scared that i would be rejected after all most kids thought i was the weirdo. There was this one time when i was invited to go with some kids and i was so ecstatic, i was bragging to my parents about it the whole week, and then i got dropped off at the movie theater at the mall because that's where i was supposed to meet them, but an hour goes by and i decide to call them and they answer, basically they said they were at the other mall, and i was like ok, how dumb of me, then i realized that there wasn't a theater at the other mall.. i heard laughter and they hung up, i was so hurt, i thought to myself how can people be so mean. Anyways i didn't want my parents to know so i waited for another hour, which was a horrible decision, the mall had closed and the only pay phones were in the mall. and i tried to find someone to lend me their cell but no one would so, I a middle school at the time was all alone, at night aimlessly walking to find a payphone, i eventually found one, i called my parents and told them , the movies done"... at that point and time I truly felt what it felt to be lonely, i feel like a lack of relationships or even more a lack of a relationship with God is the worst kind of torture. Loneliness IS the worst kind of torture. I have forgiven the kids, and God's love has covered the sadness and loneliness that i felt.


Anyways from going downtown i became friends with some Gothic kids, i myself wasn't Gothic but i was def. a misfit, and they were welcoming of me so i started hanging out with those type of kids, i remember trying cigarettes for the first time i was in 7th grade, and i started going to parties not b-day parties but sinful parties they were really bad, and even before i had the Holy spirit in me i knew they were bad.


But anyways after i graduated from middle school i started going to Sarasota high, my freshmen year kinda whomped too not as much as middle school tho. but anyways, every morning i would start walking to my class i had to get there pretty early my mom worked really early so i would just sit outside the door of my class and i would notice some kids holding hands around the flagpole and i had no idea what they were doing so i asked someone what are they doing, and he told me, they are praying, and i replied that's weird, are they praying to God? and he was like yeah, and i was like “weirdos, you will never catch myself dead praying to a god around a flagpole.”(remember this statement).



In my latter part of my freshmen year my big brother had friends come over every now and then and i had become friends with some of them and one of the friends his name was Chris Deutschle invited me to come to youth group with him and right away i said no, and he kept at it, and i don't know how but i found out that a girl went to the same church she was one of the popular girls and i knew from middle school i think she was the only one that was actually nice to me, anyways the next time he asked me to go i jumped on the offer one for the girl and two to get him off of me, the first time i had ever experienced a youth group was quite an experience, i was so nervous and ppl kept coming up to me, my mind set was i am never going to convert into this cult, honestly, then we had worship time and i thought it was the weirdest thing, ppl were putting their hands up and i was like is someone going to call on them to answer the question, and i realized they wanted a high five lol. after the service the worship leader talked to me and asked so what has God been teaching you lately, and i had no idea what to say, i wasn't even sure if i even believed in God i think i said something about love and nature and like global warming, it was quite obvious i did not know Christ. The reason i went was for the girl that i liked, and nothing else really appealed to me, so i didn't really enjoy my first time at youth group. I kept going though.

The first time the youth pastor asked us to pray the prayer of salvation, i didn't know what it was but i prayed it to be respectful and he asked the crowd who prayed that prayer, and i had but didn't know what it meant nor what i was saying, and told me to go out into the lobby with an adult. i was like what have i gotten myself into, and after they had talked to me, everyone was coming up to me and hugging me and saying how proud they were of my decision, so i was like oh i did something right, but at that time i did not understand what it meant to have a relationship with Christ, and how that is i will be saved, not through what i do but through Jesus dieing for my sins for if i were saved by good deeds what would be the point of Jesus dying on the cross for our sins..

Anyways a few weeks later the youth pastor told the gospel in its entirety that i realized what it meant that God loved us, that He is like a father, like i said previously my earthly father didn't show me love like he should of, so i did not fully understand what a father's love for his son truly meant. the youth pastor explained that God is the father and Jesus was his son, he had a son and said that if there were a man with a bomb and was threatening to kill all the youth group and all the guy wanted was his son he could not do it, he loved his son that much. and i was like wow God loved me so much that he let his son take my sin and die, i bawled i lifted my hand after the prayer and was delivered from my despair, i found hope for life, i found Christ, and He became my saviour. God's timing is impeccable, right before i accepted Christ i had thoughts of suicide, i never actually made that attempt but i was on the edge, and i really truly believe if i hadn't heard the gospel i would not be here right now.



Not saying that everything was fine and dandy after i became a christian, actually things sucked at first anyways.I had to cut off some relationships i had with friends and the little bit of closeness that i had with my family went out the window, my parents were ferocious that i became a christian. after i got saved, i was always jealous that i wasn't born into a christian home, my parents were actually very against me becoming a christian they had stopped taking me to the church, so i had to get rides from other people, its weird, they were willing to drive me downtown all alone where i could get into alot of bad shenanigans but weren't willing to drive me to church a place where they knew i was safe and knew i wouldn't get into shenanigans. I used to be persecuted all the time by my own family, its died down a lot, they respect me or at least my parents do. But i know that God has a plan and that he knew what He was doing when he sent me to my family. God's timing is impeccable. Actually just recently my dad, of all people asked how do u have a relationship with Jesus, i almost jumped up and down, i have been praying that God place other believers in both my parents lives and God has answered both prayers its awesome!

But I knew that God is in control and His love surpassed all that i went through, but Satan was ticked off when i became a christian honestly a few months later Satan was feeding me so may lies and i was buying into it, i was at my ropes end, i was like this christian life is soooo hard i can't do this, i had to get new friends, i was less closer to my family, but there were a few verses that have really strengthen my faith and have truly showed me that God is in control and that i could never ever walk away from God, because i know that He is the truth and that He is my purpose and even my identity. Anyways the verses are;


"Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight."
- proverbs 3:5-6

"Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour." -1 peter5:8


"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." -john 16:33



I just recently got re-baptized or actually got baptized, by actually Matt oberly and James(the christian formally known as Arlin) at UNITE, we were watching a Frances Chan video and he was preaching about repentance, and God had moved in me the week b4 about how i need to come to him as i am, not fix it then come to him and i knew that repentance was a 180 degree turn to Jesus, but i was more focused on turning than what i was actually turning to. And Frances told his testimony and how he progressively found out what it meant to actually become a christian, and we all i am sure have questioned oh, i have to get baptized? I need the holy spirit? I need a relationship? Don't dwell on it, if its in the bible and its truth then just go for it, his young daughter got it, and the rest of the church e-mailed him about it do i need the holy spirit first then baptized?....anyways for the longest time i have had in the back of my mind, and the spirit telling me did u get baptized because u were “really encouraged to?” was it real, and i replied no it was not real, so i got baptized!



But yeah compared to what i was before God has def. Transformed me, i am not as shy as i used to be, i am holy blameless pure through the blood of Jesus, i have purpose, i have the love that i have always desired, the love that has no conditions, unconditional, and i eventually became the leader of first priority at SHS and was the leader of the prayer at the pole(the same one i said i wood never be caught dead doing), and i feel led to become a medically missionary to Haiti, that is what God is calling me to do.


I wanted to blog my testimony so if u guys are going through the same thing i can help your through it, by listening and praying and giving you my wisdom that God has bestowed on me, or if you are going through other things i would be open to hear it and pray with you.If any of you are looking for purpose and want to talk about it or desire to have a relationship with God please comment, call, message me, it would be my pleasure to talk or pray or even just listen to you. God bless!.



"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." -John 3:16

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" -romans 3:23

"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in[a] Christ Jesus our Lord." romans 6:23

"But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners." -Romans 5:8

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

season of change

a changing season to most ppl means winter turning into spring but in the "CHristian world" it also means that its a changing time, like God has called u to something and theres going to be a changing season. I've been praying alot and been listen to God alot too and what i keep getting is season of change, and no doubt yeterday was a huge change, Obama is now our president. But anyways not only that also i am getting my resisdentacy this year, and God is going to deliver me from a few things i can not wait! but also with this season of change i want to start losing weight. i have been running and using a stationary bike for 30 mins a day and walking for the past 3 days i kno thats not a alot for now but i am very motivated and i now i may not want to and i may skip a day or two but i have my mom to tell me if i did my excirces, and my dad without fail WILL say something. but to be honest this is kinda hard for me to talk about i am very self-consisceous and its a big deal for me to be talking about it, but i am not blind i have mrriors i am over-weight and that is very unhealthy, i am doing this for me, i have only told Sara Schuh this but i don't rly like going to amusement parks anymore because of my weight i am sooooooo scared that i won't fit and be so embrassed to get off w/o a ride and be laughed at, that is truly my biggest fear as of now. Another reason i want to do this is, i want to look better obviouly who doesn't, um health reasons.., and thats it...ooh yea i want to fit in clothes better, its hard to find clothes u like and loook good in and u can actually fit in so thats another reason. thats it u better just have read this and kept that way, what is read here stays here unless u want to talk to me about it.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

a night out with Seth Horner

things Me and seth did last night
-got to the libray 15mins after it closed
-talked/prayed/witness to homeless
-research/study for things that will be unmentioned
-found a loophole to the starbucks 5 dollar wi-fi
-talked/hung with a homeless haitian for a couple of hours
-went to mcdonalds and talk to a just released prisoner and let her use my phone
-prayed for/with the just released prisioner
-blessed/paid for the homeless haitian's stay at the salvation army
-saw jerry spriner at hollywood 20
-listened to Seth singing in the car at the top of his lungs.
- saw gran torino(rly good movie)

...overall a great night.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

new years "adam"

i haven't written in a while..but i am in mal's room just kinda killing time so Josh can rest alittle longer so bandit doesn't bother him..yea i am looking after bandit in mal's room..he is such a puppy, and a very disobedient one at that. I had a thing with a friend yesterday and i was upset so i let bandit stay in the pool area while i went to the lake to vent...and somehow he got out, and got all muddy and wet, i just washed him 3 times in a row two days ago because he smelled so bad, and he made a mess of the shower...i guess i am just going to have to deal....

don't know what i am doing for new years eve yet..i got invited to a bon fire, but i might just stick to see the pineapple drop at downtown.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

so much to write so little space

okay fisrt thing i wanted to blog about is, babies and dogs, me dog sitting and house sitting has given me some experince with having responsibties of taking take of something else other than myself. I mean i took care of two dogs at the wilikes household but they were fine by themselves they were not destructive , it was probably cause they are older and trained right. But if i am having this much trouble with a dog, well trouble is the wrong word, i am frusterated with him, how can i ever think of having a baby now-and-days, no way jose!

second thing is, last night was pretty sweet, i listened to the holy spirit and not went to see the movie with my friends instead i went to talk to homeless ppl and pray over them. I had hung out with Arlin b4 the movie and had planned to meet up with my friends later, but i felt drawn to talk and pray for these homeless ppl, it was awesome i was so glad i didn't go see the curious case of benjamin button. anyways after we finished talking to the homeless ppl, Arlin came over to the Schuhs and helped clean some stuff up for me, i have this whole cleaning schedule, so i can clean most of their house up for when they get back.

lastly and def. not least, i am going to breakfest with Deustch today and later lunch with Arlin, anyways i may or may not rly emotional at breakfest, because this will be the last time i will see him in a while. :[. it was nice getting to know him more these past 3 months, he is moving to colorado...so yea. i'll blog what happens later, stay tuned for the season finale!