new years "adam"

i haven't written in a while..but i am in mal's room just kinda killing time so Josh can rest alittle longer so bandit doesn't bother him..yea i am looking after bandit in mal's room..he is such a puppy, and a very disobedient one at that. I had a thing with a friend yesterday and i was upset so i let bandit stay in the pool area while i went to the lake to vent...and somehow he got out, and got all muddy and wet, i just washed him 3 times in a row two days ago because he smelled so bad, and he made a mess of the shower...i guess i am just going to have to deal....

don't know what i am doing for new years eve yet..i got invited to a bon fire, but i might just stick to see the pineapple drop at downtown.

so much to write so little space

okay fisrt thing i wanted to blog about is, babies and dogs, me dog sitting and house sitting has given me some experince with having responsibties of taking take of something else other than myself. I mean i took care of two dogs at the wilikes household but they were fine by themselves they were not destructive , it was probably cause they are older and trained right. But if i am having this much trouble with a dog, well trouble is the wrong word, i am frusterated with him, how can i ever think of having a baby now-and-days, no way jose!

second thing is, last night was pretty sweet, i listened to the holy spirit and not went to see the movie with my friends instead i went to talk to homeless ppl and pray over them. I had hung out with Arlin b4 the movie and had planned to meet up with my friends later, but i felt drawn to talk and pray for these homeless ppl, it was awesome i was so glad i didn't go see the curious case of benjamin button. anyways after we finished talking to the homeless ppl, Arlin came over to the Schuhs and helped clean some stuff up for me, i have this whole cleaning schedule, so i can clean most of their house up for when they get back.

lastly and def. not least, i am going to breakfest with Deustch today and later lunch with Arlin, anyways i may or may not rly emotional at breakfest, because this will be the last time i will see him in a while. :[. it was nice getting to know him more these past 3 months, he is moving to colorado...so yea. i'll blog what happens later, stay tuned for the season finale!

Christmas day

so i woke up at 3am this morning, i couldn't go back to bed obviously. i made a few videos for ppl on facebook. i got 3 presents in total money from my parents and a nerf gun from mike and bec and a poster  from corey.. IDK why but Josh davis texted me "merry Christmas" and it meant alot for some reason, actually its probably cause i was having a lousy Christmas eve, and he texted me out of his own free will, i didn't text him first, and i look up to him and stuff. My parents came over here for like 5 mins i should say my mom came over my dad was irritated i could tell.. he didn't come in. so yea.. anyways i am going to have some sparkling apple cider now, peace out!

P.S. its 12:50pm  and i have noticed that everytime i take a shower that someone never fails to call, not b4 not after but during, everyday since i got here at the Schuh's actually Deutsch has called everytime, its like he knows when i take a shower and calls... this time i got into my shower got wet and then my phone rang and i was like great, it was actually my mom i was surprised. then i got back in and soaped up and stuff then another call i was like i wonder who that us but i didn't stop showering this time, and go figure it was Deutsch.

i do not want to say which presents i was dissapointed in or who i was disappointed in espically because i only got 3 presents. but i want to post the presents i wanted- wish list

-high school musical 2

-high school musical 3 pre-order thing

-watchmen graphic novel

-stephen Cobert book

Christmas eve

So we are celebrating Jesus' birth tomorrow! I pretty much finished all my shopping, i thought i finished all my shopping last night, but...Eric texted me, and i was like whats up with the random text, he was like "because i felt like it, idk" he is a confusing boy, sometimes i feel like he doesn't want to be friends but other times i feel like he wants to be best friends.... 

anyways i saw seven pounds last night with  Chad,Robert and Josh Zawacki(who slept over at the Schuh's house with me on Monday). it was intersting it wasn't as good as Oprah said it was gonna be but it was ok. I think the person who shall remain unnamed was a little perturbed by it because of pervious memories.... i am going to SPOIL the movie in the next lines to be AWARE! Basically Will Smith does as much good as possible to 7 ppl, because he got in a car crash and killed 7 ppl. So i guess he wants to make-up his boo boo.

Before we saw seven pounds we went Christmas Caroling and it was Awesome! the ppl that went were Heather atha, amanda beachy, Arlin Beechy, Aaron miller, the rest of the millers, Chad, some girl, me, then Josh and RObert miller came a little later. It was sooo fun, nobody threw tomatoes so i guess that means we weren't too bad. it was funny after like going to like 10 houses, we went to our last house and as we were singing you could hear something coming and as it came closer a big group of ppl riding on the back of a truck in a metal thing were caroling too but from the street and for a minate or two we were kinda competing, but they stopping in front of the house we were caroling at and backed us up. it was a very merry Christmas "adam"(Adam came before eve) to say the least

New home for the year

So right now i am on Sara's computer and in the Schuh's house taking care of their pets and their house. I have a housemate for a fews days, and i am excited and nervous at the same time about everything. Um i am having Josh Zawacki over soon, he said he may sleepover, so that'll be sweet. but i am gonna get off now, I'll write stuff later.

I hate how i act. the kids at church probably think i am either on drugs, drunk, or mentally retarded. I really need to calm myself down. yesterday night i was outside just chilling with the kids and i don't want to be fake, be pretend i am this responsible adult that can't have fun and have a stick in my bum. SO i let loose, and am my normal weird self, walking through people having a converstion, or talking to someone and then seeing someone i need or want to talk to more and go to them and cease the current conversation. Those are horrible habits of mine not to mention my sense in fashion and my backpack i carry everywhere, Trevor talkie asked me what the heck i had in it and i told him
-a sweater
-bible
-zombie survival guide
-deodorant
-toothbrush and toothpaste(currently not in there anymore)
-extra phone charger

and he went around talking about it, idk if he was impressed, or wants to be my friend or just plain out making fun of me, but i noticed when he asked me about it, his posse made a circle and were all ears, idk what that means. anyways he also talked about my random picture skills and how i have a ton of friends on facebook, i know most of them i told him, but i added some i didn't because i wanted to see my differnce in my life(i am a follower of Jesus Christ), then he was like, with a zombie and vampire video. and i was like ugh these kids must think i am a such a weirdo, so that is why i think i might tone my personally down a knotch or have a more conversative personallty.

pondering and wondering

i was told like a few minates ago by someone i barely know that i think too much. I asked him if we had lived closer or actually hung out for real if we'd be friends. Brian said "Omar you think too much lol"... "I am sure we would have been". I do that i ask myself what if this happened or this, how much would i have been changed. I am sure that all that has happened and everyone whose pathes have intertwined with mine or even just crossed it has made me the person i am today.

I do believe that God has control over that stuff, so i am satisfied with what he has for me as friends, good friends, best friends and even acquinces. God sees the whole picture, where as i can see one perspective, so it would be dumb of me to not trust him to let him guide me and show me my path. after all my life verse is proverbs 3;5-6

"trust the Lord with all your heart, do not lean on your own understanding. Acknowledge him in all your ways and he WILL make your pathes straight"

I went to the hospital today with my aunt, she may or may not have breast cancer. so pray for her, that would be awesome. Anyways i was her translator and everytime i do it, its kind of a blessing. I feel kind of important and kind of special,

this one time i was in the post office with my dad he was mailing something to some one, but anyways we were at the end at the line and it was a huge line. The Line had not been moving for a while because this one lady who spoke only spanish could not understand and vice versa, and the post lady asked "does anyone speak spanish in here!?" and i didn't say anything right away , i was kinda shy, but every single person in the room looked at me and my dad, and i just raise my hand and ask "i do" i didn't really have a choice. while i was walking up there the lady was like "you speak english too right" lol i was like "yeah i do" and long story short, i helped her and the post office lady was like "since you helped me out, you can be next and i was like saw-weeeet!

Its cool, but it makes me sad when i see hispanic women having trouble getting things done, whether it be shopping or getting a ride, and espicially if they have small children with them. this is probably because my mom had the worst time as well as us, i mean i never really thought about it but she went thru alot just to go get a check up at the docters, she is an incredible woman. i love my mommy, and i think thats why i feel so compassionate for single hispanic moms. i think a ton of ppl looked down on us for not knowing english, i mean alot of ppl look down on ppl now and days, English is not even the offical langage of america technically. so yeah just wanted to write that i got to go now tho, need to go to church to minister the teh kids. God bless and thanx for reading

God the refiner

so God is def. refineing me. He is totally bringing me back to the whole faith baptist incident scratch that incidentS and showing me a brand new level/degree of forgiveness, first of all, the stuff that occured at faith that i went thru(i won't mention in this blog) was horrible, made me feel like a pathetic piece of crap worthy of nothingness. But God first showed me that most of the world defines themselves by those words, but as a Christian we should call ourselves beloved, or his, or loved, or children of God. a total oppisate of the words the world calls themselves, words that i used to.

Anyways wanted to give u some backround lately He(God) has been bringing those people who have done me wrong back into my life or at least crossing pathes with me, and me having those memories come back is real bad. But talking to one person tonight, which will remain nameless... this person barely even remembered that they had done this, and everytime i saw them i was hesistent to talk to them, i mean i said hi and all but i was always intimated by them... anyways i was like yeah u rly hurt me, and they were like i am rly sorry, i was still growing and my faith etc etc, and i was like its okay i forgive u.

i feel like a weight has been lifted, maybe some day me and this person may become good friends idk... this was only one instince of this happening, there has been 4 others that i've to like this past week, crazy huh?

my conclution is that God is awesome!

tuesday is the day

hello readers, i guess heroes last night was the last one of the season but its coming back on, on feb 2nd. thats not at all far away, especially because LOST has taken almost a year to come back on.

anyways last night Moyer took me home and we kinda had a heart to heart about some stuff, i wish i could do that more often. One topic was faith baptist, and how rotten everything was there...but the friendship are still missed til this day. I was wondering to myself, the reason i stayed was to minister and glofiy God. and i thought to myself did i make any impact there? or rather did God use me to impact others, i ask this because adam said he felt alone at faith, and i thought i tried my best to at least make him feel welcome...idk. But Eric said that i changed his life, this was last thursday, i wish he coulda said God did, but regardless, he said that everyone there was rly condemning especially when he missed a day at church to study, i totally agree with him there, they more than once said i was unsaved. But anyways he told me that i was the only one that actually showed him love and mercy, and thats why he shows unconditional love out too ppl.

I wish more people were loving towards other, especially Christians, i feel like they/we are notorious for not loving and condemning, we are known for what we stand aganist more often than what we stand for.

As far as me and eric goes, hes not talking to me again... last time he thought i was mad at him and i thought he was mad at me..it was a miscommunication. But now i think theres a reason, a reason i would rather leave undefined. I deleted his number from my phone so i don't bother him anymore with phone calls to see what is his or my or our deal. plus the whole condemning him for stuff i think goes into play.

but i want to write more but i got to go, i need to clean my house because i am having people over to play games and watch the dark knight!

first post! 12/15/08

i made my blog at Adam Moyer's house, we are gonna watch Heroes tonight at 9 which is in a bit. he says its the last episode but i don't think it is yet. Heroes is actually really awesome this season almost as good as the first, the second was ok.

anyways i went to the mall today with nate and lorielle and chilled we saw Michelle there and she was talking about this blog and i decided to make one too, i had a live journal back in like freshmen year, but myspace and facebook took over. I miss blogging thats why i made one.

i want to quote what lorielle's sister said today which was rly funny, but g2g..Adam is watching tv w/o me and don't wanna be rude. Good night and good luck san fransico!